5.18.2004

The thin edge of the wedge

I am very appreciative of being alive. It seems pretty unlikely that I would be to begin with. It just seems to me that the most logical state of the universe would be that there is no universe. Maybe that's just my lowest-point-of-energy rationale speaking but it's harder to go lower in energy than no energy.

Matter seems unlikely; why couldn't it just have been space? Physical laws exist, too. Why isn't it just pure chaos? That's messed up. From those crazy physical laws, against the run of entropy, here we are. Sure you can have locally complex systems while the greater system retains its overall chaos but come on! This is just stupid. Consciousness? The acme of lunacy. It's a little hard to take the universe seriously. Really, what in blue blazes happened to just not existing? Was that too boring, too cliche?

It's mind-blowing to have what we do have for as long as we do have it. I don't even want to try to understand, I'm pretty sure it's beyond me. I'll just enjoy the ride. Thanks, universe.

5.17.2004

Hotheaded

Please, if you wear a tuque purely for fashion purposes, just stop. I live in Montreal. It reaches -30 Celsius regularly during winter. The wind chill takes us to -40 frequently, sometimes -50. That's cold. During this cold spell I wear a tuque. I am not trying to set the trend, appeal visually to women or enhance my street cred. If I don't wear a tuque the cells of my skin, particularly those around my ears, will die and cause me great pain. I have to wear a tuque.

If you are wearing a tuque just for show, you are goddamn taunting me and I won't stand for it. Would you go out of your way to eat a whole roasted chicken in front of some starving kid? No, you wouldn't (don't be a smart-ass, you wouldn't). So take your frikkin' tuque, put it back in your closet and remember where it is when it becomes a necessary survival item.

Man, I hate you people.

5.12.2004

Phase Transition

Blogger has revamped itself, added a bunch of new templates and new features so I figured now's a good time to change a couple things.

1) I'm allowing comments on this post. I don't normally seek feedback on what I write. Mostly because I figure it's just me writing for myself. But if anyone out there ever wanted to say something, here's your chance. There won't comments allowed on any posts in the near future.

2) I picked a new template because the old one sucked big time. Hopefully this one won't warp as much from platform to platform. I did like the colour scheme though.

3) I added titles to my posts. Ain't yer life totally flipped upside-down?

5.02.2004

Set Fire to Your Heart

Make a hearth of your mind
Use your memories as kindling
Set fire to your heart

Flames consuming words long dead
Smoke curling around that invisible shape
Set fire to your heart

Feel the pain of the heat
Let your feelings be razed
Set fire to your heart

Set fire to your heart
And paint your face in ashes